am sooooooooooooooo fuckin tired right now. hahaha
wilfred has gone back to camp already... technically it's already monday now lah so basically he went back last night at 8:45pm (slightly earlier) or so... shaikha WAS supposed to wait for me outside the camp after his dad drop him off at the camp but she forgot all abt me and the dad drove to send her home while i stupidly wait at the bus stop for five minutes before knowing she's gone and hadda go flag a cab to go back to boonlay mrt station hahaha sian sia.... me n wilfred took a cab down frm boonlay mrt stn to the camp then while we walked out it rained.. so he was thinking whether to go straight into the camp anot but then end up running to the bus stop. say he dun wan to juz abrubtly leave me lolz silly fella..... he kept holding on to my hand both at the station and in the mrt..... i feel.... so important? all thanks to him of cos..

he has been rather emotionally unstable when he got out.... can see that it affects him alot and how much he dreads to go back to camp and very attached to me cos he keep hugging n kissing me lots and stuff like that. broke dwn a few times... well, i feel irritated by my calmness cos i wanna be emotional somehow to juz hug him n all... i got hug lah but i was very sane n all... encouraging him, giving him support and then juz basically being there for him. was talking to mum awhile ago and will breaking this news to him later tonight. he'll be thrilled. mum say i can continue staying over at his place for the next two saturdays when he book out!!!!!!! i myself am so fuckin thrilled abt it am totally amazed with my mum n her understanding. i mean like, WHICH MUM WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE DAT BEFORE HITTING THE ROOF???

wilfred can be so cute n silly sometimes? cos usually he's the more logical and emotionally controlled one... now he is like a big baby and i'm the mama hen? lolz while he was packing up the last bit of his bag, he went over to his hi-fi where he kept all the stuff i gave him before for our annivasaries and all, and guess wad he was doing? taking the lil` pillow i sew for him with his name and words i love you on it and wanted to bring it to camp!! hahahaha i dont' know but i'm like enjoying the affection and enjoying the fact that he loves me so much more now and enjoying the fact that i'm so important to him... glad that he realised my effort in the relationship and no matter wad wrong he has done to hurt me in the past, it's over already. silly him grinned while telling me that he would usually count dwn to the days before he book out and then everyday the onli thing he wanna do is to call me and after he does so, he will go back to his bunk n stone hahah then his bunkmate will kacau by waving their hands infront of him ask him he ok anot. then another will say 'aiyah thinkin of gf lo...' then i duno he said once got one of his bunkmate ask him how come he so serious abt the r/s (he like stone so much). i was like very curious about wad he said then he grinned at me and said in japanese, kekkon (marriage). i was like HUH!? hahahaha he say he told the bunkmate he's serious abt the r/s and i'm the one he wanna get married with in the future. i was pretty shocked actually, happy too cos i do hope that our r/s last long term.

i picked him up on satuday and was outside his camp at 12pm. waited one hour cos he was one of the last few batch to be released haha sick sia wait under the sun for so long. then after that i saw him in his uniform all sweating n then he straightaway hold my hand n then we took a bus dwn to the mrt station to take train back. asked me if he stinks and whether i dare to hug him anot hahahaha well he didn't smell too bad lah... he dropped off at queenstown first to go home n bathe while i continued the journey to bugis junction cos i still have my japanese class. i was late for 20 minutes. luckily previously got ask lisa help me take note for last week cos i never go... =P

after class i rushed back to wilfred's place. he say he miss me ask me faster go back hahahaha siao one. when i got back we decided to go to choa chu kang to catch a movie n play some pool... met up with sano to play pool. hehehe wilfred suddenly on form sia then thrash all of us hahaha no fun one. me got sweaty palms!!!!! sian hahaha we didnt catch movie cos the timing all sux. after pool we wanted to go makan end up so sano went home first (went up wrong escalator haha) but end up we didn't eat at cck cos too crowded. we back to the nasi lemak stall at wil's hse nearby. he had fish n chip, i had chicken cutlet.

watched some tv and went back to wil's rm to talk. talked really quite alot and actually on our trip back frm cck juz now i was talking to wilfred alot, lotsa words of encouragement to make him more motivated and less moody about going back to camp. can see how much he dreads it. he was on the verge of breakdwn in the mrt but had to push back all his tears, fighting to keep his emotions in place. i guess no matter how strong n cheery he usually is, ns can really make a guy breakdwn. we talked quite abit and i finally managed to have him feel better and pull himself together and said that he will remember the words he said and not do anything in the future to hurt me. about 2+ he was already very tired so went to sleep. forget to mention, ziyan and yong an was in the hse lolz yong an keep makin fun of him.

slept next to him felt gd n it's nice snuggling up to him... haven't done that for quite awhile... kinda gives me that... secure feeling... i wore the new set of clothes mum bought haha he say like beach wear. the both of us wokeup at 10 in the morning and then washed up and all..... his mum was cookin in the kitchen so i helped iron his uniform. two sets haha i never iron clothes before so i was pretty tough for the first set but then i got used to it already then ironing the second set was easier. we had breakfast with his mum then after that later in the day we had his nails cut cos they were hideously dirty after training n abit too darn long... had them trimmed and then he was talking to terry on the phone cos abit long so i end up falling asleep next to him while waiting hahahaha..

i feel that our love is getting strong and stronger and i'm glad about that. we spent so much time juz being together for two days worth and i'm really happy and glad and contented and grateful... and.... i know we can get through this. and havin him so affectionate and want me so much definitely felt good too. sorta rekindled something that was fading away for a moment back then... now it's all coming back *smiles*

today is actually my mum's birthday? i got her a card and she got me a new shirt haha tml we'll be going to parkway to get my make up. jayce is actually in the same camp as wilfred? diff unit but also CD haha dat day he call me when i was waitin for wil and i was wondering who on earth is he.. wear specs n botak i dun recognize ah hahaha then oso met one of wilfred's fren in camp... some indian guy i think might be his bunkmate so shook hands with him. abt the SIA retrenchment thingy, wil's dad is safe haha